AWE

I need to somehow try to make myself belong. I wish someone would notice that I am not always wrong.

When I close my eyes real tight, I find I’m in a place. And when I look around I see I’ve created my own space.

I gaze up to the sky and feel that I have done this before. Many lives I’ve lived and I

know that this is the last one I have. It has taken decades for me to understand the

reason why we exist. I remember very vividly being in a room. The ceilings are high and

magnificent, detailed with every stroke. In childhood I had flashes somewhat like a

shooting star and in these flashes was this room I find myself in more often than not.

There is a screen that is pulled down and soon the movie begins to play. I watch my life

flash by just like the memories I have once had. I know now that when I reach the end of

my existence that I will be in this room again to watch this precious life that I have

chosen for myself. Just as you have, your life that you choose. Before my birth I decided

what it is that I need to accomplish on this planet. I need to learn to fail to laugh to feel

many and if not all emotions. This is part of the life list that will now become real as I

enter into the world for my birth. I am born so far from perfect but yet I know internally

that I have been programmed for the life ready to come. Does anyone not ever wonder

why they would have chosen their life? Are some of us suffering on this planet that is

overcome with grief and guilt and all other ugly epidemics? I have realized that there is

another place that will be introduced that is peaceful and blissful. The place in which the

room resides is this of my heaven. Our loved ones passed, they greet us in a way that says

welcome we were never apart just on another color of the rainbow. There is no end to our

existence.

Not one person looks at another in distaste. There is no negativity. In fact the very

opposite in this heaven I know exists. First I need to complete my journey to perfect my

soul. Taking with me who I am and that is happiness. Our heaven is waiting, our movie

being set up to play. You need to recognize.

We need be imperfect we need to mature our souls. It’s the only way to make it to

that color in the rainbow. Those who catch on faster start to recognize their chart, just

like on a roadmap every detail is laid out to see. Our destiny is waiting until we are ready

for the light. Light that comes from the glow of the stars if we can just open up our hearts

and let our wings fly. Slow down, look up and take a minute in our time see the good we

will encounter. I feel as though the parts of my brain are starting to demonstrate all the

knowledge and answers that many others do not see. My thoughts are that of memories

that bring me to today. As this body I have chosen is given in good faith. A shell for the

soul to live in until the day it can escape. Accept the past however good or bad it may be.

finally get it! Buy why does it seem that right now. At this exact moment I finally get. It

seems that I can get out the words what words cannot express. I have an ability and it

might just be common sense but we have been everything. At one point in time. Take a

chance with any positive feeling you experience.